I know what you mean. I have too in August of 2000. I've stated it before and got similar responses. It goes beyond our typical rationality and I pretty much expect those who don't know to give those types of responses. You have to be willing to ask and listen to the response, and even then it is up to "God" (I don't profess to understand the personality characteristics, nor any type of masterplan, but I do understand the logic behind the universe and existence). I think Richard Bach's "Illusions" has the best written explanation for what I experienced. Just like there are cells in molecules, like molecules in organs, organs in humans or animals, societies among civilizations, civilizations among planets, planets among solar systems, solar systems among galaxies, galaxies among the universe, to universes among ?????
This is the spiral of life, it is never-ending and regenerative. Energy in it's various forms is life. Our souls are a pure form of energy, and can only transform, not die.
That is in my best language, the way I experienced it when I experienced "God." Science actually helps to explain this phenomena. In a religious sense, these concepts have been personified as well as occasionally manipulated. That's why I am not "religious," but I have an unshakable belief in whatever "God" I experienced. This includes a wonderful, all-forgiving, energy force that I felt enter my body that I instinctively knew was "Jesus Christ." Obviously, it wasn't a 33 year old carpenter physically entering my soul, but I got the metaphor the second it happened. I inherently understood.
Go ahead, and call me nuts, high, unhinged, or whatever else you would like. There are enough people out there who know what I am talking about to verify my experience, not to mention, it happened to my best friend simultaneously. It was a shared "trip." No drugs needed. That experience has kept my head straight through a lot of turmoil and I lost a lot of bad personal habits because of it.
I do strongly feel that even if you do not believe in "God," that "God" still believes in you, and if you ask for understanding, you may get it, but it is not up to you.
Now go ahead and grill me.