Kudzu - the military recruits everyone. You are not special. I topped out the ASVABS also. Big deal, it was easy. I repaired combat radars and computers and fired the 5' 54 cal cannons on my ship. You choose not to go.
Your post clearly shows what I stated. You feel shame. This time you justify it with domestic violence which is a window into your thoughts.
Just admit to yourself why you feel the way you do because you are in denial here.
That is why you responded. I hit too close to home.
Life should not be lived through regret.